Life is finally slowing down these days, thankfully. It's ironic though because it seems like the last seven years has absolutely flown by. Seven is so real because that is how long my Mom has been gone today.
Some days it feels like just yesterday my parents sat my brother & I down to tell us that my mom had cancer. Other days it feels like just yesterday we were going through countless doctor visits & hospital stays. And other days it feels like just yesterday we were going through the worst week of all of our lives.
Despite feeling like it was just yesterday, it's been 7 years. And for whatever reason, 7 years makes it all so real, for me. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of my Mom. There's not a special moment, big event or even a down time where I don't think of her & wish I could talk to her just one more time. To hear her cheer me on, give her advice or just give me a big 'ol momma bear hug... what I wouldn't give.
With all of that said, I am so thankful for the years & memories that I do have with my Mom. She was so fun, outgoing, smart, loving, caring, a woman of God... She was the best mom in the entire world & I am so blessed that she was my mom! I miss her like crazy & I don't think that will ever change. I know that will never change. I also know that she is with me more times than not. I know she probably had a hand in choosing Matthew as my husband & has helped guide me on my journey to becoming a wife. I know there are those people out there that maybe aren't as lucky as I have been. I know there's people out there that maybe never knew their mom, or their mom was in & out of their life or just didn't have a great relationship with their mom... whatever the case may be, I count my blessing that not only did I have a mom (technically still do) but, she was a GREAT mom! She was just one of the best people on this Earth and to have her as my mom, I know I am blessed.
Seven years making it all feel so real. Seven years to reflect back on all of the times we had together, the memories made - good & bad, and everything in between. It's not easy & it's not fun but, I am so blessed to of had her in my life & to now have her as my guardian angel.